A Letter to my Younger Self

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There will be days that feel like nothing in the world can go wrong. Everything will fall together seamlessly. You’ll smile and laugh, and when you watch the colors fade from the sunset you won’t long for peace.

And then there will be days that knock the wind from your sails; days that test the strength you thought you found. Through those days you have to remember that there will be moments in this life that will hurt more than others. It’s in those moments that you will find yourself, broken and scattered into a million moments that came before that.

Pick up the pieces. Pick up the pieces and discard the ones that are too sharp to hold onto. These are the moments you need. Rock bottom isn’t always an elaborate, definitive experience. Sometimes it’s quiet and unforgiving, forcing you to let go of what you’ve outgrown. Maturity comes at a price.

You’ll have focused so hard on what you wanted that you will have lost sight of what you deserved. But the days will become good again. Your heart will heal slowly and you’ll breathe a little easier when the light fades. Your dreams won’t be your only safe haven.

It’s not a one-stop shop, this road you’re on. Don’t be afraid to smile at strangers and say “yes” to everything that makes you uncomfortable. There will be a lot of voices trying to mold you, trying to tell you who you are and what you want. There will be voices telling you what you can and can’t do, and what you’re capable of. Ignore them. Drown them out. Turn up the volume and keep driving. Put your shades on, roll down the windows and sing your heart out.

You’re not going to have a clue about what you want or where you want to go, or what your greatest dream for this life looks like. But most days, you will always know who you want to be and that’s a pretty good place to start.

Most importantly, you’re going to be your own worst enemy. No matter how hard it gets, no matter how much it hurts, you have to live and love like there’s no such thing as a broken heart.

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